Man Friend

Okay so I have had this guy that has been my friend for about a year now. Seeing him off and on.  The past few months usually seeing him about once a week.   I didn't really think it was anything too serious..Just a sex thing plus I was able to talk to him about stuff.  Which was pretty awesome.  Until recently...About 2 weeks ago he started coming by every day in the evening.  To be honest I am not use to this.  It was like bam!  So I figured I should tell him that when my sons dad is in the City they hang out at my place and he usually stays for night with my son.  They watch movies and play games or whatever.  This dude asks if I am sleeping with my ex.   Like you can't be serious....I am not a whore.  I can't believe he even asked that.  I have only been with him....got fucking knocked up....had to go have an abortion not even two weeks ago.  I don't care what people say...an abortion is NOT easy.  Its highly emotional.  I feel so horrible.  Worst person in the world but I couldn't afford to keep the baby.  I can barely take care of myself and the son I already have.  This being said.....I returned my man friends sunglasses to him yesterday....Every chance he got he said something mean to me...acting like I have been cheating on him or something.  I had mentioned my back was sore so I wanted to walk.  He told me I should get my sons dad to massage it.  My sons dad would never in a million years touch me never mind massage me.  I hate myself for weakness but i started crying.  damn these hormones still pumping through my body.  He then says to me "why are you crying?  Quit bring drama into this.  I was just joking.  I thought you could take a joke.  quite being a baby or your son is going to grow up to be a pussy"  I cant help it that i am not a fucking cold hearted man with no feelings what so ever.  There is nothing wrong with feeling.  It was a new person I was seeing last night.  Most likely it was his true self showing.  Telling me its all about pussy.  I know he was just saying this shit to hurt or burn me.  After all these digs at me he wants to come to my place to watch a movie.  I am like no way in freaking hell.   Not after everything he said.  I don't think I can even be friends with him anymore..Some things cant be taken back.  The worst thing is I told him things...deep things I have never really told anyone before.  I think this is why this whole things hurts so much.  I felt like  I had a connection with him.  Only to find out that it was all one sided.  Hell he was probably always laughing at me when I wasn't around.  Making fun of me while with his buddies.  Fuck I totally hate myself for being such a totally stupid freaking girl.  I should so know better by now.  I always seem to have to learn the hard way :(